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okay, i just wanna tell you something, okay many things! rite, don't know why but i messed up my life. hate it much, a lot of much now. great! lemme ask you something..

• friends will always be by your side no matter you're happy or not, rite?
• they'll never gonna leave us, rite?
• and they'll be honest to us IF they don't like what have we done, rite?
• they'll never gonna be a backstabber, rite?
• they love us no matter what we are, rite?
• they'll never let us down, rite?
• they just want us to be happy, more happy than usual and they'll try as hard as they can to make us smile&laugh, rite?
• and last, they'll never gonna hurt you, rite?

okay, all this time the answers for those question are "NO, they're not" a big NO for a friends,fake friends, or whatever you call it. the answer are gonna be YES, a very very big YES for true friends. yap! true friends, they'll answer the question above with "yes" a veeeeerrrrryyy big YES!



and you know what? i don't think i've found my true friends(okay no offense).. it feels like... uhm, i often or maybe i can say it ALWAYS feel better if i'm alone (okay no offense...) cause i feel like i'm free, ya i'm free. but things are better if me,I'm with my friends. but really, wheter i'm with them... i still feel lonely. ya.. don't ask me why, bcause don't know about it too.... maybe because they think that i'm not exist. eventhough i'm with them, beside them, or maybe at their back. but... huh.. just wanna say it's fun to know you :)



...... dont know what to do now. maybe just wait for a miracle (haaa) -_-' fyi, i don't think that i'm exist in their world. ha ha ==' ohya, sorry for my (veryveryveryveryvery)bad english. i'm still learning ya know^^



Love,

Nadya Anindita